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Shepard's Paradox - Old Recordings 2008​-​2010

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1.
sunday my lover sailed away my lover sailed away and the day laid low aware that sails strip slack and that ships crack sink back down to the dark below where the bad folks go then everybody held hands raised flags, prayed, and waved like the waves wave quiet when the tide is low cracks in the pavement, patterns in the mattress sure he is a pacifist but how were we supposed to know with all the blood flow the children descend to play war and angels, priests and devils the congregate crumbles home alone sunday my lover sailed away my lover sailed away and the sea wept salt and sacrament children in the alley build cannons from trashcans oh no! all the blood flow (ash wednesday) a hesistation a notch set gently in words trickled out over zephyr scarf and marking an alley's worth of walls a hesitation a hand run over a cross of automotive grease on our brows oh, to dust shall you return after all then i remember you once with three white tigers and threadbare fingers and movement older still by admission then i remember you once as i remember all things in tradition wait! tradition? bullshit! we cough scrap metal lung and gasoline spit like we could be the brand new futurists you and i as we say or as we might say and sacred canon? fuck it here's a revised manifesto that you can tack on to your docket to all concerned parties there is no chance of reconcilliation give it up and then i remember you once as i should never hope to know you or know you again (holy saturday) and the blind will lead the blind the blind will lead the blind the children cry the rest just go home the blind will lead the blind the blind will lead the blind the martyrs die the rest just go home and blindly weave and sink into a silent prayer hands clasped, conjuring, whispering like children crying far from home divining hopeful thoughts from guts laid bare with the fear that lives in everybody here the fear that after all is said and done we're all alone we're all alone. i don't want to be alone.
2.
and that day the flickering spark day the lonely snowflake day the stop right in the middle of the goddamn street to pick up something that day glimmering all glimmering then a soft place to stay to pen a song as delicate a brick against bone and that day the day you finally saw how souls glow stupid and tawdry and cheap and you won't believe in anything at all it's a vulgar trade all lined up hammers and sacks and little christmas pigs all glimmering and dropped in a pocket
3.
goddamn what a botched operation that was everybody falling all over one another every eye falling all over one another and tilted like a lampshade letting off light falling all over like music anymore the major life the minor fall just let it go on the shirking of service so heavy, so light to rise like an eyelid so heavy, so light a scar as a cilice so heavy, so light the music so risen so heavy, so light i could meditate on you untie you like a knot fully formed, opened up blossemed in my mind i already know, i don't need to know if it's really you i'm seeing anymore we create what we need the major life the minor fall just let it go on i am not to blame you are not to blame the world just fades away sometimes everything's okay you are a diamond tonight and i am so heavy so light
4.
Traditions 06:22
she doesn't cry out loud at night because no one really does that in real life she just sets her coffee pot gets undressed, goes to bed and though she still has dreams in the morning they mean just next to nothing and she can't around to taking those pictures down so she just doesn't really look at them anymore when pressed about these personal decisions she admits a certain deferrence to tradition she still sends out christmas cards though the list gets shorter every year she still gets some in return stored away,unopened when winter's made its way to town and this one's bound to be as bad as any the house is still alive with soft young light and the fragrance of poinsette and amarylis when pressed about these precarious positions she admits a certain preference to tradtion so sun rise and set set the mistletoe deck the walls and count yourself among the few the blessed and time honored carried on vast shoulders that stagger back and slump beneath but still support the weight of you
5.
those are ugly ugly words you say they are etched in bold letters like pictures in my mind everything is not fine it was late so i didn't bother calling back just pillars on a straight line i woke up when the sun woke up i stood up too fast and got dizzy i saw the little bright flares floating to the ground when the lightning strikes the tree the tree might come down but it might just get a grip on itself get a grip and get busy i made my rounds through the house the ones i always make repositioned anything that seemed out of place wiped the dust away, let the light in i believe in new beginnings of life in my wake dont' you tell me i'm forever stuck in my ways i am fire freshly lighted and i'll burn out when the sun burns out and i rise so slow times you may just miss it i saw the hyacinths ponderously push throught the dirt when the flood hits the flower the plant may unearth but the roots may run deeper than you and i ever could have guessed it
6.
the wake up call is a breathtaking storm if i brave the wild winds and wind along i-79 just lean against the driver side door warm my lips on a flatwoods gas station coffee the road this far is empty but it will fill up soon enough one hundred breathless miles to west huntington you can run, but you can't hide the place that you were born old friend is bound to be the place you'll come to die i roll the window down let my hands glide on the currents thick air rolling by and getting warmer by the minute the sun has just begun to eat its way up through the mountains directly behind me all the best intentions line that unforgiving circle sweet birch and pitchpine nestled up against the river you can run but you can't hide with their molten hearts and memories they will shuttle you inside the place that you were loved the most my child is the place you'll come to die
7.
i got into the car and i turned the ignition let me be very very clear about this i got into the car against all better volition and i eased it back out into the night i got your message alright i battled my way onto i-17 the frozen winter weather shifted the storm they sent was so vast and strong i've never seen a thing so bitter and vindictive i know it was meant to stop me dead in my tracks there is no wall that they could build to hold me back when i was halfway to the bar i called you on the telephone i still know your number by heart but the message was new i rolled the window down and stuck the phone out as far as it would go and i let the wind send ferocious praises of my love for you make no mistake sugar that's not just wind you hear it'a a gale the likes of which could send this little car soaring off spirit clinging to this body like a torn tarp i know you're at the other end of this line i'll be there in no time there is nothing left but the desert and the desert is nothing but empty and empty is the favorite home of the faithless
8.
focus on a heart this is your direction every ventricle valve and blotched vermillion sunspots that surround it take it in your mind and mold it give it form give it shape focus on a heart this is your creation every rhythmed racked and burning new sensation let the flow and ebb define it take it in your hands and wind it give it mind give it flame give it life focus on a heart this is your providence every light left or stuttered beat of old breath the ways that you have known it take it in your heart and own it in mercy or severity silent god or poetry give it yourself
9.
Crows 05:34
somewhere in this great big world there's a man standing quietly on a kitchen chair and the long dark elastic is pulled tight around his throat and the cardinals are still singing in the background somewhere in this great big world there'sa girl throwing everything away because it still has your scent and the night always whispers keep one bullet back just in case but the sky forfeits light too so don't if you don't want to cause somewhere in this great big world there is someone who is just like you somewhere in this great big world scavenging is better still than perishing obscurity is safer than the contrary things are not as exacting as you wish they would be but the sky forfeits light too so don't if you don't want to cause somewhere in this great big world there is someone who is just like you the sky forfeits just like you time doesn't always come on through language musn't always come to words a crow is an intelligent bird
10.
i'm an old song today i feel older than ever i guess we're all old in some way or another i pretend to know more than i ought to i know much more than i think i do i'm a child at heart of accidental catharsis i shouldn't betray myself if there's truth here i might just find it sooner rather than later cause somewhere inside me, though deep i know we're not alone we're never alone
11.
the box came around mid morning damn near broke down the door with his tiny young hands hill face rock tumbling catchweed and moss creeping frozen and crumbling waste he opens his frigid mouth music all wriggling out calliope notes from the days as a child gone by and a child goes by his fist blooming flowers his ragtag trumpeteer army devours the silence of loss the wren, albatross the feather of innocence lost in your wheezing wind open your little mouth let your teeth tumble out let loose your handfuls of grain let the christmas band play you know the song so when you set your table line your chair with daisies to let them know you're waiting patiently, patiently the coracle, the caravel cast your wintry curses to the bristling air and when the box comes round you'll still pluck that hateful feather you'll line your arms with daisies like you've ships to sail
12.
oh, careening innovator build for us one thing a pendulum to remind of us the permanancy i was feeling i guess a little too ambitious ready to take the extra few planks down the pier were the ground will become less mottled wood and footsteps more briny and cold collect your seashells babe of mine charred sea grass of alkaline lightning turns the coast to glass the waves crash the last of autumn passed quietly like a child breath taken eyes locked upwards at the libyan sky the first of it's kind guilio now tens years gone doubtless would have marvelled on at such atrocities the smallest ships are docking finally but i turn and leave them all behind me i won't fight for this lightning turns the coast to glass the waves crash oh careening innovator build for us one thing a perfect cipher for a living sphere swaying endlessly oh disasterous creation look at just what you've become a pier, a thought, a child gone an aerial bomb
13.
the coracle, the caravel innocent antiquities aloft a day sidereal from home to west of tripoli spinning swift dirigible in a softly swelling cascade the earth she sways so suddenly and sweeps away 21 knots my brothers ho! if we wanna get home then we gotta keep going the wrong way 30 more minutes to the libyan front if we wanna keep going we're gonna have to drop our load mathematicians, entrepreneurs citizens, where did we go wrong? oh careening innovators what have we become? november 1st is cold as hell even in a desert the frontier looms before us ever so thoughtfully such great heights and barren as a child 21 knots my brothers ho! if we wanna get home then we gotta keep going the wrong way 30 more minutes to the libyan front if we wanna keep going we're gonna have to drop our load mathematicians, entrepreneurs citizens, where did we go wrong? oh careening innovators what have we become? but wait there must have been some mistake maybe i'm wrong after all and as the fire fills the sky and the ship catches light i know now the truth of it all the bomb is love! thank god we finally see! the bomb is love! and grace and mercy and sweetness and serenity! yes!
14.
slice along my lateral line razor tooth to caudal fin down my spine and back again render my insides and lay me out to dry sea dogs sour tripoli in tonic immobility the main land casts the coastline and slips off in the high tide wash away my eyes in blinding light mirrored up like cataracts of crescent moons and union jacks abandoning a mind already left behind memory drapes across me like woven calliopsis the flowers bloom and invert water in a desert guilio my child i can feel you with me but look away, look away now i am not crying guilio my child i know you are with me but look away, look away now i couldn't stand for you to see guilio my child i know that you miss me but look away, look away now i will soon be with you guilio my child we are only children so look away, look away now let us learn our lessons
15.
Wintering 04:48
i remember the last time you were naked beside me the way your body moves when you sleep is almost like the seasons a slow familiar machine i guess i know the seasons like anyone by the pictures on the posters by the schoolyards growing up spring is frought with flowers found in summer's green and light autumn comes when leaves begin to cover them from sight every winter i become convinced the trees will never redress their branches and how will i ever hide i them i have never heard my own heart but i remember hearing yours my head on your chest and your bare skin is soft and electric i am bursting out in all directions in the dark i become convinced my body is too big so how will i ever hide in it? how will i ever hide again?
16.
seems like all my friends are getting married the rest of them are bound to get divorced last fall i ate fresh fruit by the bounty this one's bound to be as barren as they come and when they come the girls are firebrands and waitresses again and the boys are still just looking for show next year we'll spend too long dissecting the options new curtains no fire, no gold i know a man! goddamn goddamn! 1987, the year of our lord! last fall i ate apricots and raspberries and stumbled through the winter with a song now all my friends are getting married the rest of them just go on and on
17.
Big People 03:18
you were afraid for a little bit but you won't always be afraid all those people that would hurt you are more terrified than you've ever been and you might feel like you can't ever win you won't always feel that way all those people that would hold you down or hold you back are losing races they were never in to begin with there are names and there are places even for the smallest things we're not not young anymore but we are brave i believe you can do anything so you might be afraid of them i know i've felt the same but all those people big big people are more afraid of you than you are of them
18.
down on the boardwalk where the people get wet and the salt water air fits like a tourniquet i caught a glimpse of my future in your figure somehow and someone said something about a storm coming in well you may have the weapons and you may have the wealth but don't put me in the ground just yet i can do it myself on the corner of clayton or washington you smiled like a tiger in the eastern sun i watched my friends line up in the firing line and someone said something, i was too caught up you're so beautiful, let's count the ways all the things i could guess at, that i wouldn't change for all the glory of a trainwreck or all the things that remain well you may have the options and you may have the help but don't put me in the ground just yet i can do it myself don't dig that grave just yet i can do it myself
19.
on my last days at the nevada state penitentery i laid out the bible and the pamphlets and the fruitcake you sent to me i never read the bible but i ate up all your cake it was moist and sweet like freedom i just wanted to say no, i will never see your tiny church but the pamphlets make it seem very nice tomorrow is the last walk i'll ever take so thank you for the cake

about

Most of these old recordings used to be up on CLLCT, which is a now-defunct creative commons music hosting website. When CLLCT went under, I never bothered to reupload them anywhere because they're, well, really dated. Some folks go through a straight edge phase, some folks go through a prog rock phase. Anyway, 8-10 years later and I think they are an interesting personal historical document, and there are some good moments. This is the first time I've ever put these lyrics online.

All songs were recorded 100% by me on my crappy laptop, with very little effort made towards professional recording.

A Shepard's Paradox is an audio illusion that can seem to be constantly ascending or descending, despite the fact that is in fact staying the same. In other words, it's a big old shit talk on myself. Womp womp.

Traditions (2009)

This is an album specifically about tradition and ritual and its place in modern society. It was originally packaged with a chapbook of short fiction, because I suppose I fancied myself some kinda literati when I was in my early twenties. Yikes.

1) Passion Narrative (Palm Sunday / Ash Wednesday / Holy Saturday)
2) Christmas Pigs
3) Separate Cities (Faithful)
4) Traditions
5) And the Last Word
6) Flatwoods Texaco
7) Separate Cities (Faithless)
8) De Providentia Dei
9) Crows
10) Passion Subjective (Easter Sunday)

The Child (2008)

This album is about a dead kid, and the first ever aerial bomb dropped, and....god knows? It's pretty hard to say exactly what I was writing, except that I must have been reading some weird books. Initially I was gonna upload this as one 22 minute long track, but, frankly, I can't bring myself to that level of 70's pretension.

11) I -The Box
12) II - The Cipher
13) III - The Bomb
14) IV - The Child

Unreleased Recordings (2010)

For about a month in 2010 I decided to re-record and re-release some even older songs I had written. The project was abandoned after recording almost 10 of them, and these are the only tracks that haven't been lost to stolen laptops or lost cd-rs.

15) Wintering
16) Robert Creeley
17) Big People
18) Parasuicidality Pop Song
19) Letter to the Church of the Holy Blood, from the Nevada State Death Row

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released December 2, 2018

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